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shocking

socialies — Wed, 19 Mar 2008 12:34:44 +0000

I won the 3rd prize for the Public Speaking competition I joined today. Shocking! seriously shocking. I prepared the speech last night and practically cried my way through the impromptu. How did I win?

Oh well. I get a fancy certificate. I just hope I don’t have to participate in the next one, next week.

reinvention revolution

socialies — Sun, 16 Mar 2008 00:13:38 +0000

Reinventing myself is something I think I should have done a long time ago. I’m going to change a lot about me soon starting from outside in. I guess its time for me to start getting rid of the old and coming up with the new. This year is a year of being assertive and gaining control of my life and who I am.

Losing one of the biggest influences in my life has indirectly taught me to influence myself and to find my own source of inspiration. I need to rely more on me and start to mend the broken parts of me. I’ve got to change.

School starts tomorrow as a matter of fact. and I must fix my life before that. I must be able to stand on my own two feet and finish all my work, assignments.. what not. Today is my reinvent-me day.

perfection

socialies — Wed, 12 Mar 2008 15:35:55 +0000

Perfection is something we all strive for. I want to have the perfect grades, body, friends, family, future, etc. Everyone wants that wonderful dream land to appear on their doorstep. It is possible. With a lot of hard work and a lot of prayer, it can happen.

How?

BELIEVE.

‘seventeen’

socialies — Wed, 12 Mar 2008 11:50:29 +0000

When I am seventeen I will be

~~SKINNY~~

smart

athletic

happy

pretty basic needs. I MUST be skinny before I’m seventeen. so scratch that. I’m going to be great. I know I will be. I guess my BFF ‘disappearing’ from my life in a way is going to make me grow up. Isn’t it wrong for me to take this as a ‘graduating’ phase. I adore Rae but sometimes, I’m in her shadow. A LOT. She pressures me in a different way that I guess makes me want to hurl although I feel that I need to meet her expectations. Its so complicated.

I guess I should be missing her. I do. Yet, this is a time for change. For moving on with everything. For fixing and creating. I miss my BFF. a lot. but I guess, change is who I am.

pulled apart

socialies — Mon, 10 Mar 2008 12:47:55 +0000

My best friend is gone.

I have tonnes of work to do.

I am tired.

THANK GOD for holidays.

berdiri di atas kaki sendiri

socialies — Sun, 09 Mar 2008 08:45:28 +0000

My best friend has left me today and I guess I’m feeling down for a very good reason. But now, I don’t have my backbone to lean on, I have to be my own person, to stand up for me. I’m kinda like the ‘alpha’ female in my group. I can step out of being her giggly best friend who has a bubbly cheerful disposition. I can be me.

I miss her. But her leaving will change everything. Including me.

PRIVATE

socialies — Fri, 07 Mar 2008 13:44:58 +0000

Interesting new book on the market (to me anyway) which is a mixture of Gossip Girl and any mystery novel. I’m definitely going to check it out especially since its Kate Brian, who is one of my FAV authors. :] PRIVATE costs RM 29.90 in Malaysia.

lost

socialies — Thu, 06 Mar 2008 06:24:09 +0000

My best friend’s last day of school is today. Was today. Is it wrong for me to feel sad? Is it wrong for me to be upset? I don’t think so. I have a right to feel the way I do. She is a dear friend. She’s pratically my sister.

How can you stop missing someone, tell me.

on LT

socialies — Wed, 05 Mar 2008 10:46:33 +0000

Pledges I have taken
It has been 500 days since I signed the Chastity Pledge.

That was what was written on my LifeTeen profile. AWESOME, no? Chastity has always been a big deal to me since my friends don’t practice it. WOOT for 500days.

bye-oh

socialies — Wed, 05 Mar 2008 10:12:59 +0000

Biology would be a fascinating subject to learn if only Miss Tan was more interactive. I guess she’s a great teacher and all but please, I am literally dying in class. I just can’t understand what she’s teaching because she goes so fast, she keeps scolding us, she mumbles to herself. Please God, help Miss Tan be a great teacher so I can get an A in Biology. I don’t want to not understand. Its much too important a subject to not understand.